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Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Julian you are here!


February 14th, Valentines Day 2009. 5:15 PM, 8 pounds 12 ounces and 22 inches long.

So so much to say, to share, to record and so little time. I am overjoyed, amazed, in awe, in disbelief that something so amazing was living and forming inside of me. That I carried him inside and now I can hold him on the outside. Every part of him is perfect, every cuticle and eyelash. He is complete perfection. I really feel that the labor and delivery was perfect and I am so happy with the entire experience.

I am touched by the amazingly overwhelming excitement and warmth we are receiving from everyone around and I so wish I can personally tell every person every detail about these last days-from the beginning of labor to now. I ask to be patient with us and for everyone to know that we are carrying their warmth in our hearts throughout these first exciting yet somewhat challenging and transitioning days.

Julian is currently sleeping on the excercaucer type thing. He was so alert and playful so we wanted to do some tummy time but by the time we set it up and put him down he zonked out and could care less about all the toys dangling above him. Yuriy had him grab onto one of the toys and he was sleeping for over an hour with his hand hanging above and holding onto the toy.

We have endless photos that we are in the process of getting all together to post up. BUT we realized that we hardly have any of the three of us together.

Yuriy is so amazing with Julian. It puts me in this complete little heaven of mine to see them together, it is a feeling like no other. I have no words for so many of the feelings I have these days...

This has been a quick rant and a more coherent and detailed account of the labor and all other juicy details is to come next time I get a few moments.

Julian: Now I know why people keep on having babies and why women go through almost 10 months of pain and retardedness. You are everything.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

You're almost here and I am...

Tired. Excited. Sleep deprived. Guilty. Joyful. Overwhelmed. In love. Embarrassed. Uncomfortable.In pain. In awe. Immobile. Big. Thoughtful. Blissful.Withdrawn. Dark. Happy. Big. Mournful. Beautiful. Tongue Tied. Scatter Brained. Real. Emotional. Big. Touched. Attractive. Scatter brained. Sappy. Antsy. Confused. Sexual. Old. Candid. Silly. Amazed. Inspired. No Energy. De- sexualized. Ugly. Young. Sluggish. Reminiscent. Retarded. Cloudy. Contextualized. Open.Yearning. Big. Rushed. Anxious. Flushed. Sweaty. Incoherent. Private. Amazed. Weary. Disorganized. Bored. Wise. Cold. Obsessed. Dreamlike. Closed. Sentimental. Ready. Restless. Sad. Big. Funny. Sensitive. Numb. Busybody. Boring. Calm. Eager. Impatient. Not ready. Willing. Fervent. Enthusiastic. Whole hearted. Scared. Truthful.

Putting together coherent sentences are a bit much for me these days....