Julian at 11 months

Ugh 11 months! Eeva was just born and I look at her teensiness and am flooded with the feelings if Julian's birth and those first weeks. it's hard to believe that those moments are past. It's this really odd phenomenon that you know on our reality time moves forward yet it's so hard to believe that your child will never be younger again. I can imagine feeling like this when he's like 18… Nuts. This month has been quite eventful both in the good and bad. I have hit my winter blues and haven't been able to steer them away as I would of I wasn't a mommy. Let's be honest, there have been many bad moments and days. But Julian is walking so easily and quickly by just holding onto one hand! He's had some setbacks with being sick hence our canceled trip to Mexico. He is recovering from Roseola. First time he has been sick and got so on the day that I thought of how he is the only baby i know who hasn't gotten sick yet. Nice.

Now I am finishing packing to go to Naples, Fl which is our Plan B. I am so looking forward to spending quality time with my boys as it feels as though that has not happened much lately. For the past two months or so with my finishing NYU (straight A's I might add in my last semester and with a baby!) it feels like Julian has been spending way too much time with the grandparents which yes, I'm thankful for but I also feel like I'm missing out. And then with him getting sick when with his grandparents while I was packing for Mexico, he ended up there for the past 10 days while sick and recovering. I amso grateful to have my family who are so involved, caring and helpful with Julian but I can't help but feel that I'm missing out…

Well here is to Julian who will as I suspect start walking by himself in the next month especially when practicing on the sand in Florida, to Julian's last infancy month-I can't believe that you are 11 months my little boy. You are maturing every second and its crazy to witness. Currently your favorite activities are to pull all the books off the bookshelf (which I am in the process of now moving to higher shelves :) ), you love your new walker and crashing it into everything, you don't like sitting still my little explorer, and you are SOOOO GENEROUS! You share everything and especially since you've been sick and have not wanted to eat you take extreme pleasure in feeding everyone around you, very fairly I might add as you go around in a circle. But we must eat the food you give us to get your super pleased reaction.You do this gasp of excitement when you are amazed with something or open a closet door to see all the stuff behind, it's a shriek of amazement. You also love to show us how a plane flies as you woosh your toy planes through the air. You are very quick to learn how a toy works and you often show mommy before she figures it out. You want to sleep with mommy and daddy but beat us up in the process. You are an amazing little man.