Oh Blog, you elude me.
Mommyhood, you are difficult for time management, you challenge me and my wishes to record the memories, the moments.
JourneyDance is blooming. Julian is growing at time warp waysspeed
Our first sentences from the last month:
"Mama, adeyala upala, dai pleeeezzeee". Translations: Mama the blanket fell, give it pllleeaassee.
"Mama, NAM NAM"!: Julian barks his order at me demanding food aka Nam Nam. I tell him Julian, how do you ask nicely? "Mama, nam nam plleeeezzee".
People everywhere: "Oh you are so cute. Such a big boy" Julian nods and says "Ya."
Anything that doesn't belong, like a teensy lint thing on his food he takes and goes to me with his little ginger saying Na Na (Here, here) with the most disgusted scrunched up face!
Somehow Sashas hair got on Julians lip and he is picking it off and says Mama, valos, valos (hair) I didnt even know he knew the singular for a hair strand!
Friday, August 20, 2010
Friday, February 26, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
To My Husband
Yuriy,
I am going to try to keep the mushiness at a minimum. I knew within the first week spending those special first days together that you would be the father of my children. I just knew, plain and simple. The first week with Julian at home, we were sitting on the coach, the three of us and I looked at you with a look that Julian gives me now. Pure love and admiration. That day my love for you climbed to another level.
It has been a difficult year and I am a not a simple or easy person. And as cheesy as it sounds, with all the ups and downs there are, there is no one else in the world who I'd rather go through these ups and downs with.
Thank you for making such an amazing little person with me.
I am going to try to keep the mushiness at a minimum. I knew within the first week spending those special first days together that you would be the father of my children. I just knew, plain and simple. The first week with Julian at home, we were sitting on the coach, the three of us and I looked at you with a look that Julian gives me now. Pure love and admiration. That day my love for you climbed to another level.
It has been a difficult year and I am a not a simple or easy person. And as cheesy as it sounds, with all the ups and downs there are, there is no one else in the world who I'd rather go through these ups and downs with.
Thank you for making such an amazing little person with me.
To my Julian, on his 1st Birthday
Oh wow. My little boy. My little boy who just held ME tonight as he feel asleep...
Julian,
A year ago at this time I was going to bed after coming to terms that you might not come out and I'd have to be induced. Daddy and I do a few things to try to motivate you to come out and then I fall asleep :) I awake to a few odd cramps, go to pee, come back to bed and sshhhlluuuffff! My water breaks! So I tap daddy to wake him up, just like in the movies which they say never happens, and call grandma and we go to the hospital!
Today I asked Babi Alla if it is just me who remembers my labor with you to be such a pleasant experience. While she reminded me I was in pain, I remember this day as if it was yesterday and with feelings of such excitement and content. You my love, were born at 5:04 PM, and I will never forget the feeling of your moist head (don't barf dear readers) when I first kissed you...and kept kissing you. You looked at me. And you keep looking at me with your amazing eyes that communicate the world.
This year, we've grown together. As you develop everyday I rush to keep up with you. You are so amazing. You have such a personality now and about 10 days ago you began to look at me, like a real little person. A person who understands, thinks and realizes new things every moment. When you say Mama to me, I am all yours. We are all puddles under your feet.
You are now looking at me with this new love and admiration. It is spectacular and makes me feel so loved. My love for you just keeps growing as we grow together.
And you little boy, are really freakin funny. You do the silliest cutest things which words would never do service to.
This year has not been an easy one yet it has revealed so much. I now know what unconditional love is. What truly putting someone else before yourself, means. You smile, and that is it. That is the only thing which exists.
Tomorrow we celebrate your birthday and our first year together as a new family with a whole lot of people. Grandpa Yan is throwing a huge party to show you off. And you my love are so worth showing off. While events such as the one to take place is not up my ally, I understand something. You will be surrounded by people who care and love you and your family. You are to be celebrated. You are always surrounded by love, so much love that no one can pass you by without exclaiming "Now that is a happy baby!". And you truly are a happy baby. And here is a universal truth of loving parents: we just want you to be happy. I will not ask much of you, but do try to keep that twinkle in your eye while smiling through life. We will all always be smiling at you.
Happy Birthday Julian. You are so loved.
Mama
Julian,
A year ago at this time I was going to bed after coming to terms that you might not come out and I'd have to be induced. Daddy and I do a few things to try to motivate you to come out and then I fall asleep :) I awake to a few odd cramps, go to pee, come back to bed and sshhhlluuuffff! My water breaks! So I tap daddy to wake him up, just like in the movies which they say never happens, and call grandma and we go to the hospital!
Today I asked Babi Alla if it is just me who remembers my labor with you to be such a pleasant experience. While she reminded me I was in pain, I remember this day as if it was yesterday and with feelings of such excitement and content. You my love, were born at 5:04 PM, and I will never forget the feeling of your moist head (don't barf dear readers) when I first kissed you...and kept kissing you. You looked at me. And you keep looking at me with your amazing eyes that communicate the world.
This year, we've grown together. As you develop everyday I rush to keep up with you. You are so amazing. You have such a personality now and about 10 days ago you began to look at me, like a real little person. A person who understands, thinks and realizes new things every moment. When you say Mama to me, I am all yours. We are all puddles under your feet.
You are now looking at me with this new love and admiration. It is spectacular and makes me feel so loved. My love for you just keeps growing as we grow together.
And you little boy, are really freakin funny. You do the silliest cutest things which words would never do service to.
This year has not been an easy one yet it has revealed so much. I now know what unconditional love is. What truly putting someone else before yourself, means. You smile, and that is it. That is the only thing which exists.
Tomorrow we celebrate your birthday and our first year together as a new family with a whole lot of people. Grandpa Yan is throwing a huge party to show you off. And you my love are so worth showing off. While events such as the one to take place is not up my ally, I understand something. You will be surrounded by people who care and love you and your family. You are to be celebrated. You are always surrounded by love, so much love that no one can pass you by without exclaiming "Now that is a happy baby!". And you truly are a happy baby. And here is a universal truth of loving parents: we just want you to be happy. I will not ask much of you, but do try to keep that twinkle in your eye while smiling through life. We will all always be smiling at you.
Happy Birthday Julian. You are so loved.
Mama
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
A little note from Florida
I cheat. This is an excerpt from a quick e-mail I just sent to my dad.
Julian has really grown up. He walks really well but still needs to hold us, he wants the security even though he could probably walk on his own. A new thing he does is hides himself behind the blanket and waits for us to look for him by asking where he is, and if anyone saw him, he waits and waits and then pulls the blanket down quickly and makes lots of noise and laughs. He is really great at restaurants and socializes with everyone. He has become a bit obsessed with cars, pointing and saying ma ma for machina. He loves finding the moon and says moo for it.
Julian has really grown up. He walks really well but still needs to hold us, he wants the security even though he could probably walk on his own. A new thing he does is hides himself behind the blanket and waits for us to look for him by asking where he is, and if anyone saw him, he waits and waits and then pulls the blanket down quickly and makes lots of noise and laughs. He is really great at restaurants and socializes with everyone. He has become a bit obsessed with cars, pointing and saying ma ma for machina. He loves finding the moon and says moo for it.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Julian at 11 months
Ugh 11 months! Eeva was just born and I look at her teensiness and am flooded with the feelings if Julian's birth and those first weeks. it's hard to believe that those moments are past. It's this really odd phenomenon that you know on our reality time moves forward yet it's so hard to believe that your child will never be younger again. I can imagine feeling like this when he's like 18… Nuts. This month has been quite eventful both in the good and bad. I have hit my winter blues and haven't been able to steer them away as I would of I wasn't a mommy. Let's be honest, there have been many bad moments and days. But Julian is walking so easily and quickly by just holding onto one hand! He's had some setbacks with being sick hence our canceled trip to Mexico. He is recovering from Roseola. First time he has been sick and got so on the day that I thought of how he is the only baby i know who hasn't gotten sick yet. Nice.
Now I am finishing packing to go to Naples, Fl which is our Plan B. I am so looking forward to spending quality time with my boys as it feels as though that has not happened much lately. For the past two months or so with my finishing NYU (straight A's I might add in my last semester and with a baby!) it feels like Julian has been spending way too much time with the grandparents which yes, I'm thankful for but I also feel like I'm missing out. And then with him getting sick when with his grandparents while I was packing for Mexico, he ended up there for the past 10 days while sick and recovering. I amso grateful to have my family who are so involved, caring and helpful with Julian but I can't help but feel that I'm missing out…
Well here is to Julian who will as I suspect start walking by himself in the next month especially when practicing on the sand in Florida, to Julian's last infancy month-I can't believe that you are 11 months my little boy. You are maturing every second and its crazy to witness. Currently your favorite activities are to pull all the books off the bookshelf (which I am in the process of now moving to higher shelves :) ), you love your new walker and crashing it into everything, you don't like sitting still my little explorer, and you are SOOOO GENEROUS! You share everything and especially since you've been sick and have not wanted to eat you take extreme pleasure in feeding everyone around you, very fairly I might add as you go around in a circle. But we must eat the food you give us to get your super pleased reaction.You do this gasp of excitement when you are amazed with something or open a closet door to see all the stuff behind, it's a shriek of amazement. You also love to show us how a plane flies as you woosh your toy planes through the air. You are very quick to learn how a toy works and you often show mommy before she figures it out. You want to sleep with mommy and daddy but beat us up in the process. You are an amazing little man.
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